A Fantastic Fantasy :)

Chimera

I wish I had a time machine,

To visit an era .

Where expectations are not sky high,

Where small things can make someone fly.

Where fears doesn’t exist,

Where one can afford to believe.

Where no one is attired in faux optimism ,

When drowned in deep pessimism .

Where there is no dignity in wearing a fake smile,

When sorrow is battering the heart inside.

Where no one evaluate their emotions,

Where everyone persue their dreams with passion.

Where hypocrism and sarcasm are not virtues,

Where people are simple and true.

Where love doesn’t get vulnerable,

Where absences doesn’t make one feel miserable

Where no one is skilled to easily let love go,

Just to boost their precious ego.

Where I never have to say,

What I hate to convey.

Where there is no battle between fate and desires,

Where that claustrophobic feeling is no where.

Which way ?

Science affirm brain is the master of us ...

But then – our heart says something and brain something else- and result troubled us ;)

We crave to follow our heart --

But we have equipped ourselves to ignore what our heart insists and pursue what brain impose because its more logical and practical; moreover. offers ego boost of being perfect, practical ..blue blue ..blah …blah ..but are we really practical ? If so then why we often have urge to do things which are irrational and meaningless and moreover does it always make us happy to follow our brain? I believe no!! Then why do we think heart has the ownership of making us unhappy always?

I know its about metrics- following our heart land us in complete mess 80% of the time as heart gives rise to instinct which are not intellectual. But what about the 20% times when go to complete trance following our heart. Should we ignore that?

There few mysteries around us that give birth to trouble interest if we deal with them with brain, so why not deal with them with heart for a while…I do it that way by placing a semicolon after my thinking engine and just going by the flow...following what my heart says. It sounds wacky but what a feeling it is to be little crazy once in a while and ignoring all prototypes, all logics.

But then I make sure I put a semicolon to my brain not a full stop so that my brain can hold me strong, calm me and guide me when that little crazy thing called heart has put me into mess .

Its very difficult for one to synchronize brain and heart; may be specially for females as they are more emotional but that doesn’t mean we should completely ignore our heart ;) That way we just end up spend our life not living it ! Isn't it ? ;)

A Freakish Day !!

Something left me with a wrenching heart since last few days and that morning Prapti called me and stated thing weren’t going too well for her as well. In situations like this we get immense satisfaction by conducting RCA of our feeling and trying to figure out whether its worth feeling bad for such stuff, though numerous RCAs have not offered us answers to lot of questions but it had somewhat rescued us from the clingy palpable tension temporarily!!

Our thirst for carrying out a RCA for making ourselves feel better made us meet, its more easy to do RCAs when two females who can blurt out everything to each other are around!! We started our full fledged RCAs, on completion, reached some practical conclusions but logics weren’t able to solve our emotions, so weren’t feeling any better!! Thinking the fact being calm when happiness stuck and bold, optimistic when sorrow hits are good virtues we headed toward mocha to boost our mood with good coffee and snacks though we weren’t craving for food.

On reaching Mocha realizing Prapti was in deeper sorrow than me , I told her in a over optimistic voice “ babes donn worry nothing more can go wrong with us today….all will be well “ ..she replied “ you never know what’s stored in the next moment”.. though I am a hardcore destiny believer, to make her feel better ( honestly myself too ;) ) I said “ “hey I know what’s gonna happen now …we will order some good coffee and snack ..We will relish that head toward our home and sleep in peace “ ..she was quite and not in a mood to argue !! Yes the waiter came we ordered coffee and snacks …but before the snack could have been deliver to our table. We heard a cracking sound and guess what we saw - the hookah jar on our table broken into tiny pieces lying under our table. The waiter was good enough to clean the mess quickly and shift us to a new table. But he delivered a news while delivering us the food ..”mam you have to pay 3500 rupees fine as the hookah base broke. “ .

Honestly we didn’t have clue how it broke, it was a glass table and probably it slipped off somehow and we strongly felt it wasn’t our fault. We tried our best to explain the same to the waiters but they weren’t convinced, neither were we convinced to pay so much money without committing a mistake. We gave them a good fight even spoke to the manager but the manager wasn’t ready to spare, he said if we won’t pay he will deduct the amount from the waiter’s salary.

We weren’t convinced a silly hookah base can cost that much so told them we will buy and give them a hookah base they agreed!! But we had to deposit that amount and we started roaming around in search of a cobra hookah base (as per their specification) so that we can get back our money.

We weren’t lucky enough to find that specified brand hookah base anywhere, we were exhausted and angry about the incidence but we suddenly realized we weren’t feeling bad or thinking about what we were feeling bad about since last few days, now all we could think of is the hookah base and the fine .Actually we were feeling much better and hungry too. We went to a good chinese restaurant and had a nice dinner and returned home. By that time we had made ourselves dead tired in hunt for the cobra hookah base so, no tension could have deprived us from a sound sleep which we lacked the last few days. The cost of rescuing ourselves from the tension was 3500 bucks that time not a RCA..

Yet once again I realized that day life doesn’t follow any schedule and its beauty lies in its unpredictability.

Happiness is NoW-Here or No-WHere ??

Often things that exist in life remain unappreciated until we lose them, just like a creeper plant seldom understand the value of a support until its not there. If we cultivate the habit of concentrating and appreciating things that exist in life, our life will be so much better.

Its really not too tough to feel up at down times if we realize like everything else problems too have limited validity, so the problems won’t last forever. Life is not perfect and it won’t ever be but to make live better we all are living each day. If everything was in its place we would have had nothing to achieve, no ambition, nothing to look forward to, no reason to survive. So why should we have blues about the missing things in life, those missing things are making us live today…giving us a reason to wait for tomorrow eagerly.

None of us are granted happiness by birth; it can only be accomplished by looking beyond imperfections. An old saying is so true a half a glass of water can be viewed as half filled or half empty . Similarly if we look at life positively happiness is NoW-Here otherwise its No-WHere !